BECOMING MUMMY WILLIAM: Dealing With Anxiety
Hope you enjoyed reading ‘From the Beginning’ and got a grasp of our conception story. The news that we would be welcoming an addition in a few months thrilled us greatly. It felt surreal and at the same time was our reality, I was not even sure of my emotions at the time. A lot of things ran through my mind at the same time — How would you cope with work? Are you ready for the body changes and hormonal disorders? Would affection with Wisdom remain the same?
I know you would be wondering why I was also concerned about affection in my marriage. Yes, it was important to me because that is one of the lubricants of our love engine. I am a certified lover girl and I do not want to take chances. I had heard a lot of stories about how marriages lost their vibes during pregnancy and never returned to normalcy after childbirth. Never wanted mine to go south so I had genuine concerns about it.
As exciting as it was for us, I had to deal with Prenatal Depression, which made things difficult for me. This was a turning point in my life, and what made me even sadder was that I had no idea how to get over my feelings or articulate them. My husband was my only source of support, and things only got worse because he had no idea how to improve my circumstances.
What is prenatal depression? This is depression that begins from conception and during pregnancy. It manifests in a variety of ways with varying degrees of severity. Prolonged or severe sadness is a symptom of depression. Anxiety, exhaustion, and difficulty sleeping can also result from it. With this type of mood disorder, you might isolate yourself from friends and family. Activities you used to enjoy may no longer pique your interest (read more). This made the journey less exciting than we had anticipated and more frightening to deal with. I know you would be wondering why I did not seek help from a therapist — I was also scared of the outcome and never wanted to be subjected to any strict procedure as I already was placed on medications and observation by the gynecologist.
In a bid to get better, I had to surf the internet to search and listen to people who had similar situations and tap from the various remedies. Was it helpful, Yes, it was, but for a few days everything came back to how it was. All efforts seemed unproductive and as the human that I am, I got tired and finally had to rely on God to help me through the journey ahead, hoping one day I would feel alright.
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